Kiss The Flame

Addicted to the Movie Network...
I started watching a movie from the 60s the other day that seemed to have serious potential. It was called "It Started In Naples" or something like that, had a few big names, but it was absolutely ridiculous, so I just ended up watching the good scenes from HP2. And you know which movie I surprisingly really enjoyed? Grind. You know, the one about a bunch of skaters following a pro boarder's tour trying to get noticed. I actually really liked it, and not just cause Mike Vogel is hot. by the way, it also had Adam Brody now of the OC fame. Don't get me wrong, it is pretty stupid in parts and the gags involving people puking and taking a dump get old after a while, but other parts are genius- the stereotypes are brilliantly funny. The soundtrack is a little too obvious, but they're good songs so its forgivable. And the last sequence with the halfpipe showdown while playing POD's Boom "take your best shot..." was well done. I may rent this one to see it again, and to find all the extras, cause even the short bloopers they showed at the end were good. Bam Margera had a small role, and one of the friends... Sweet Lou i think his name was, reminded me of Johnny Depp when he had his sunglasses on.
Anyways, I feel like I shouldn't have said anything because they don't know that that's not how it is. Never has been, and it's not like it would mattered if I had kept my mouth shut. So here I am feeling like I screwed up again, and planning never got us anywhere anyways, so I don't know how to fix anything. Not that there was even much to fix in the first place. And if they read this and take it the wrong way then I've just dug my hole a little deeper, and it's really not a fun place to be. I'd blame everyone else for it if I thought it might make me feel better about things. And sitting here thinking about things isn't making anything better, but I don't understand why I let myself get so worked up over nothing. At least I try to tell myself it's nothing. In all honesty, it probably isn't. But I need to know... I've never had much patience, and I've been forcing myself to be good with this one. It is very trying. And I've now taken a disliking to snowy weekends. :( Waiting is a pain in the ass, and for what? Nothing will turn into even more nothing, cause it's got to start somewhere. I'm beginning to think that I'm going to have to start working things, and that is just not cool. Seriously not cool, like laughing alone. That just blows. I suppose it really shouldn't have been funny in the first place. Blah, blah, blah. I feel like whining but I don't want anyone to hear me whine which totally defeats the purpose, because sympathy is what I'm looking for here. Less than 8 months left here... so then it's brand new again most likely. And it really pisses me off when people talk about themselves constantly. Everything always comes back to them. That's why there are things like this, I don't make people listen to my bitching rants all the time, I put them here because I know I get so sick of listening to other people's crap all the time and I know people don't want to hear it. This way if you don't care, don't waste your time reading. I'm just in a general bad mood right now brought on by being sick, lack of sleep caused by the being sick, the general shittiness of being back at school and the looming exams... speaking of which, the grade 12s have a seriously retarded exam schedule. They start on Thursday, January 27 and run til Thursday Feb 3. I have four exams. All four of these exams are hard shit: Chem, Bio, Exercise Sci, and Calc. All four of these exams are on the first two days, before the weekend. This does mean I have an entire week completely off after they're done, but it means the studying will be suicidal the week before. Which reminds me, I should probably apply to university sometime soon. I have it all picked out: Kinesiology at Dalhousie, Western, McMaster, and Waterloo. In that order i think but I really can't see myself anywhere other than Halifax, so if that falls through I'm really not quite sure where I'll be headed. All I know is I'm pretty sure I don't want to be at Waterloo. Both parents and most of my aunts and uncles went there, so it's not all that exciting for me. Not to mention the fact that it's in Cambridge/Waterloo. Although it is a heavily student populated town. But Halifax is where it's at. Still. For now. I hate how much time I waste on the computer with random shit, this included so I'm going to go attempt to do something productive...?

now playing: Enemy, by Stabilo

ponder this: I'm sick again, and apparently I sound like a grandmother on the phone.

posted by Tara @ 7:58 PM